Acknowledgments
What Now
God, I been in this cell for 5 dayz now…. (that lockdown for the ones who don’t know) and for the first time in a long time, I can feel you pulling the strings of my heart to write a story that wants only touch you, but millions across the world….
I know father god I’m far from perfect… but today August 8, 2016. As the tears pared down my face, I begged you to come into my life. I knew I needed to make a change” and I’ve come to the realization that without you God, I’ll always be lost.
Father God I’ve been in prison going on 17 years. I keep repeating the same thing over & over again.
I came to realization that I’m tired. I’m tired of hurting my family with the stupid decisions I make. I know I’m lost. So, I’m calling out to you. I don’t know how I’ll make it thru what I’m going thru. I’m sure you will make a way. Father God I ask you from the depths of my soul. my heart that you will come into my life & change me, cause if you don’t, I see my road is nothing but destruction. I’m crying out to you on my behalf. My family, my friends & even my enemies’ behalf. that you change me before I self-destruct. Father God I couldn’t speak theses’ words out loud to just you, but I wanted to let my loved ones know that I’m sorry & that I really want God to change me inside out. Thank you, father god,
Love ur son
Fatboy
I dedicate this book to my mother Rosa Lee Walls ‘who always told me to trust in God. If it wasn’t for your prayers. I know I wouldn’t be here today. So, thank you & I love you dearly., Shakial Fowler, Tykia S. A. Gore & Tazzaria Gore. Man, I don’t know what I would do without y'all. 2013 Y'all came back in my life & showed me what real love was & I’m so Thankful for that, I know I’m still hardhead, but with God that will soon change, I’m tired of hurting ya’ll. So, it’s time I better myself & gives myself to God. Shakia I love you & our daughters more than anything in this world and I pray that one day God will answer my prayers to home with you all. I love Y'all so much. When I write it tears sting my eyes.
I must move on to all my sisters, Tiffany Rose Gore, who will help this book get published. Thank you for all your support. I know you get tired of me writing you when I’m in trouble. Troubles don’t last always. I do believe things happen for a reason, so I thank god even when I don’t know how I’ll get thru this. I guess I rely on God to show me the way. Big sis I love you & you’re not just my oldest sister you are my best friend & business partner “thanks for believing in me. Tia R. Gore & Tisha R. Gore, thank you, both for always having my back no matter what. I know if I ever needed ya’ll I could count on you both and for that I that I am grateful, I love you both. One day soon God will bring me home. Its gone happen. Trust & believe.
A shout out to all my nieces, please forgive me if I spell your name wrong, Y'all know who I’m talking bout, from the oldest to least. I love you all more than ya’ll will ever realize. Trirena Marylee Anderson, I love you. Tashamah Galloway, I love you, Blessing Woods, I love you. Bre woods, I love you and to Mrs. Pretty Zuri my youngest niece, I love you.
Now, my two nephews, I hope ya’ll grow up to love the lord with all ya’ll heart cause the only way to win in life is with God. I love you, Dale & Chris. Please learn from my mistakes & make your momma proud.
To all my other loved ones. Thresa Carpenter” I told you, I would remember to put your name in the next book. You need to talk to your daughter.But I know God is working on her heart. I love you all. Praise God always when you are feeling down & out. Call on God, he will always b-there.
First & foremost all praise is due to my creator the one who created heaven & earth and hell for all the haters” but also man & beast “Thank You"
Second, I would like to thank all my family members who have held me down & supported me thru all these years,
My backbone Tiffany Gore my oldest sister “the one who knows what it’s like to go through what I’m going thru, just to make it to the top. We're going to make it just keep doing you. You know the truth on both sides for me & you tell it like it is. Even when it hurt and Sis trust god.
Theresa CarpenterYou came out the blue, but since that time you have held me down & also gave me the strength to keep writing these stories I hope this is one that will touch you. I love ya.
To my daughters. Tykia, Tazzaria & Tyron Gore, I love you all & I hope to make ya’ll proud, just know anything in life you want, it’s yours for the taking, dream big and work hard. I love ya’ll so much I’ll be home real soon,
To all the one who I know love, but too busy to show it. I still love ya’ll.
I’ll be home soon I love ya’ll. To all who support me by reading my stories “Thanks! “
It means a lot to me.
Finally, Uncle Larry & Auntie Kathy Thank you
When I call ya’ll always there for me appreciate all ya’ll do for me.
My brother Jeff Gore, I love you Nig, even tho you know bout the struggle”
I serve a God who blesses me every time I look up, keep ya head up & stay outta trouble.
To all my real friends ya’ll know who ya’ll iszzzz
B-E-Z
Love Always
Fatboy
If I forgot anybody it's only cause you forgot me first.